its all upside down.

we stand beside the flame as the coals burn beneath our feet.
the vision of you grows dim and distant.
as the smoke shrouds my head like a mourning veil.
i stretch out my hand to touch you.
but the flames engulf my fingers.
you cannot see me.
you cannot hear my screams of pain.
as i burn in the eternal flame.
you heart has been hollowed out by love.
and snapped as a snack between the jaws of lfe.
i reach fr my wings the flew me so high.
on the winds of dream and memories.
but they were fuel, not drifting away on the wind.
you cannot see me.
you cannot hear my screams of pain.
as my life, my love becomes the fuel for the eternal flame.
i fall on my knees before you in prayer.
i beg you to let us free from this hell.
but this hell is mine, the burden is mine.
and i lead you away from the inferno.
but you do not follow but lead me back.
you cannot see me.
you cannot hear my screams of pain.
as you chain me forever to the eternal flame.
the fire smolders demanding for more.
when all my life is consumed, i sacrifice myself once again.
to the heathen God of love, laughing my utter despair.
whats the use of a finger when your ring is not around it?
what is the use of an arm if its not embraced around you.
you chase the demons of dreams you kept me here to fight.
what is paradise but a beautiful hell?
the desperation defeats you and you surrender to death.
i cradle you in my arms, finally able to touch you at last.


i think i'm damn bloody irritated la. i want to go out! i want to go out! i want to go out! get my point? and i want to eat plenty plenty lots of food. i miss sushi. i want sashimi! yes yes! seoul garden even. but there is noone to go out with me. ask anthony. he never reply. sean is still a dope. never reply me all. DOPE! but i still love you anyway. hahhas. i follow you go buy dinner right? now you follow me go eat lunch! i don't care! and there is nothing on tv! i feel like puting up a random picture. but i just can't find a random one to put it. boohoo!

now i can go town! whee! but i got nothing to eat at home. i mean. i have mac and cheese. but its not nice without milk. its horrible without milk! boohoo! i'm hungry!
hungry hungry hungry!

i want to watch fireworks later! yes yes! i think fireworks are going to be pretty. and i want everyone to go! I MEAN EVERYONE!
and now they are meeting so damn late! oh i don't believe in that all! tsk tsk! i am bored. i think i should just knock my head against the freaking wall! then i can die of concussion! whee!

i'm tired.
i'm bored.
i wanna go out.


i'm watching sesame street.
big bird is tiny now.
and diana krall is on it too.


i want to be a princess.
will you be my hero?
cause only you can save me.